I MISS EWE

I'm liking my new body shape and I very much look forward to you getting to know it! VERY looking forward to it! xx

I've spent all day thinking about how we began and in the fashion of an English teacher I was noting each moment and the symbolism in it and I realise now, and believe, with great conviction, it was fate and we are meant to be.

100% soulmates xxxxxx

I love you

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The patron saint of geeks?

A time when I was Alan-less and therefore only half a real person!
Also I had a dodgy fringe that I cut myself and  I look like I need a decent meal!
I love you xxxx
(P.s This is what virgin Emily looks like)

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You're still adored.

It's 04:18. I'm miserable, we're fighting and I haven't heard from you all night and I've spent the last 2 hours ringing your phone. No answer. I'm so scared something has happened to you.
This will be the most miserable night. I have to be up  in 3 hours but I won't sleep.
I want you here. I need you to tell me  it'll be ok and kiss me and hug me.
I feel so sick and scared and empty and alone and horrible.

I like all those things too.

And I like how we know each other so well. We each other's little idiosyncrasies. We know when the other is upset or annoyed.

I like how we can really be ourselves around each other.

I love you.

Xx

I love us!

I love our kisses, the quick ones, the sexy ones, the long passionate ones after sex, the sad ones when we're clinging on knowing there's a goodbye!

I love our embraces, safe in your arms, lying in bed, or sitting in our armchair or just out for a walk or when I greet you at the door in grans.

I love our chats, our brief "I'll be at yours in a minute", our long skype ones, our driving home in the dark chats about life and people we know, our planning, our revealing of secrets, even our horrible upsetting fights where we talk endlessly for hours trying to fix it-and always do! It's because we talk that we do.

I love our mutual friends, our ability to be independent too and have our own lives and universities. I love how we still mash it all together though and include eachother because we wouldn't want the other not to be a part of it!

I love our families, how we mold perfectly into each others, how they get along individually, how we interact with them.

I love how we can talk about babies and houses and commitment with not a flinch nor a bat of an eyelid or a fear KNOWING that it won't be premature and that when it all happens in good time, it will be spectacular.

I love that we trust. I trust you to always love me and listen to me and try to understand where I come from. I love that when I get upset and angry at you, you don't swat me away, you listen and even in your silence, I know you're going to accept what I am upset about and you will try! And I love that I will always apologise when i'm wrong and I will always try for you too! Try to understand, try to appreciate and try to accept even if it perplexed me!

I love that we have all this promise! We have years to go and places to see, dreams to attempt! Pain to feel, bad times to overcome.

Most of all I love that it's you. That we met in the ugliest of boring suburbia. That I found you when my heart was broken and you fixed me and made me stronger. You made me, me. And you continue to do it! I am most definitely myself with you! And you are yourself with me.
No secrets, just honest to god love and  friendship that would baffle even the greatest minds and authors to translate into art! xxxxxxx

I'm missing you too.

I'll call you later.

Love,

Al. Xxx